I SEE BUTTERFLIES IN MY EYES.

AMAZING ONE;
i don't know what i was supposed to say to you. but i promised him that i told you exactly how i felt. and i couldn't sleep until 4 plus just thinking of what to say to you.
to me, it doesn't matter if the both of you get together or not. because its not my matter. not my business. its between the both of you. sure. it might come as a shock when that happens. but i will get over it. i know i will.
remember you said this. nothing can change the friendship between us. not even HIM.
i was going to say something. but i forgot what it was.
i love you dear! and i don't want to be a blockage between the both of you. you might not feel comfortable with me around. because i'm close to him. if it makes you feel better, i'll stay away from him. i don't know. i don't want you to be jealous or feeling insecure cause i'm around. i feel bad enough as it is. don't make me feel anymore horrible.
just know that you're the only one he loves.
the both of us are only this close because i trust him. and because we've been through so much of shit together. and he is the only person who would be honest to me about myself. he would tell me all the bad stuff about myself even though it stings.
and so, i hope that you would be honest with me as well. if there is anything you don't like about me. please. let me know. so that i can be a better person. you know that i'm starting to trust you. so please. don't let me down as a friend. cause you should know that i will never let you down. cause i am here. and i'm going to treasure this friendship. alright?
I LOVE YOU!



and you. thank you. for talking to me. and letting me cry. and to make me realise that you're still there no matter what. honestly. she isnt the only one feeling insecure about all this. i am too. but i'm letting this go. bit by bit. don't make me anymore difficult that it already is. i love you too. and thats where the base of our trust is. dumb pig.